So I'm finally at the end here - just 2 days to go until I meet my babies. I'm excited and nervous, and still worried that something could go horribly wrong between now and then. Thankfully, the babies have been very active these past few days and it's very reassuring.
My last NST was yesterday and everyone looked good. Tomorrow I go in for my pre-registration and bloodwork...then I'm scheduled for 11:30am Monday. phew.
I'm nervous about this c-section. I had one with Kara, but I was put to sleep because I was so distraught about having to deliver my baby who was dead. It is unbelievable, the stress and emotional upheaval I felt going into the OR that day. I can't help but associate the c-section with that day. I have to separate that experience from this one and try to be calm. I will be awake for this one and waiting for their cries.
I'm nervous about laying flat for the prepping - when I lay flat I get woozy and lightheaded very quickly, and start to sweat within 3 minutes. It's very unpleasant. I remember the last time, they laid me down and I felt like that, then I felt like I would vomit, and they put me out. This time, I have to warn the anesthesiologist that I will vomit and ask for meds. I will also ask for anti-anxiety meds to cool me out - because I'm kind of freaked about the whole thing. I'm not too worried about recovery because I did okay last time (physically, at least.) I know it will be painful when I come home because of the flat bed - so I plan to sleep in a recliner for the first few nights. I remember laying flat in my bed the first day home and it was excruciating. My Dh moved me to the basement wher the pull out sofa was and we could jack up the head so I wasn't laying flat. But I can't do that this time. The basement, for me, is associated with being emotionally fragile and distraught - waking up crying, sobbing, wanting to die because my baby was dead. I cannot 'go there' again. I will have to figure out sleeping in the recliner or possibly just pile on the pillows in my bed. I will worry about that when/if I come home with live babies.
So, I'm pretty much ready. And thank you to BWUB for answering pretty much all of my pre-op questions. I'm still nervous - but hey, wh owouldn't be at the prospect of being cut open and having 2 babies pulled out of you while awake - right?
I'll try to post photos as soon as I can next week. I'll be bringing my laptop - just not sure how much I'll feel like doing anything except holding and loving my babies though....
18 comments:
Wow!!! Two days - it is so close!!!! It sounds like your have it well planned for when you get back - it is a wild ride - and I cannot wait to read all about it!
Hi, I was just brought to your blog for the first time and I wish you all the best for monday. I just wanted to let you know that you may benefit from a product called the "mattress genie". I have one on my bed. you can google it. It goes under your mattress and allows you to adjust the head of your mattress as much as you want so you don't have to lie flat or put lots of pillows. I think it was around 150.00? for king size. I ordered mine from JC Penney (JCP.com). Good alternative to the adjustable beds that cost a fortune.
All I can say is "WOW". I'm sure you are going through the full range of emotions. It is so awesome to hold a living baby (or two) but I'm sure you will be hit by all you didn't get to experience with your precious Kara. It was so bittersweet for me that my emotions were all jumbled up. I am just so thankful that the day is almost here for you to meet the twins and I can't wait to hear their birth story. They are so lucky to have you for a mom, as is Kara. Hug hugs to you - you all are in my prayers.
Rachel
I can't wait.
xo
I am so excited for you all. You sound great too.
As for the sleeping - I got myself a body pillow and it helps me stay upright when I need it.
Hope the laying flat isnt too uncomfortable and that they take care of you and your precious cargo to the very best of standards.
Thinking of you, sending hugs and calming thoughts
E
I am so excited for you. 2 days, WOW!
As far as laying flat, I had the same problem. The thing that worked for me was called a wedge pillow. There are different ones available. If you order one, you can get 2 day shipping on amazon (for free if you have prime shipping... I don't know if they still do, but they used to offer a free trial on their prime shipping). The other thing you could do is send someone to pick up high density foam from jo Ann fabrics and cut it into a wedge.
You'll do great. All of you are in my thoughts and prayers.
You are so, so close. In fact, you're probably doing the registration stuff right now as I type.
I guess this sounds dumb, but surely SURELY the anesthesiologist and other doctors are aware of Kara and they will help you through the anxiety as much as they can (with the appropriate meds, etc)? I hope so. I think gentle medical professionals who at least make some attempt to get that this is not an ordinary C-section for you would mean so much.
Can't wait to hear the update!
This is it... the final hours to enjoy your babies in utero before you meet them and hold them in your waiting arms.
I hope they give you some versed early on as that may help calm the nerves AND help with your pre-op prep.
Can't wait to hear your good news!
Bless you and babies.
And, FWIW (and something they did NOT tell me) was about the post op swelling as your body tries to process the 7 liters of IV fluids you'll likely receive. Don't be surprised.
And, take the Colace (or whatever stool softener is offered!).
thinking of you!!! I cannot wait for announcement of your beautiful babies' birth!!!
Thinking of you tomorrow! I will keep checking tomorrow for your happy update!
You will be such a great Mom.
Colleen
thinking about you and sending so much calm and good wishes for an easy and healthy delivery tomorrow.
a c-section with a live baby (babies) is so very different. when i heard j cry i could not believe it. it was one of the most amazing -and kind of surreal- experiences in my life. and it's fast. you'll get to see your babies before you have time to worry about anything.
just keep breathing.
xoxo
sorry that last comment was from me :)
Thinking of you and imagining what is happening RIGHT NOW. It is so amazing when you hear that first cry! And looking into your babies eyes! Waiting to hear the wonderful news.
Sending hugs to you, DH and those beautiful babies. Always remembering Kara.
Rachel
Oh my goodness!! So exciting. I am thinking of you today and sending much love!! Cant wait to see pics of the babies!!
I'm on pins and needles waiting for the big announcement. Things are going to be great. You're all in my prayers.
Thinking about you and the babies today ... can't wait to hear from you.
oh babette, I am so excited for you!! I know you're busy, but please update when you can!!
xoxoxo steph (missingisla)
Can ANYONE post an update or let us know the latest????
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