Monday, November 30, 2009

BETA Results

1st Beta HCG Levels - 477.8
Prog Levels - 47.21

I AM PREGNANT!!!!!!!

I can't believe we got the BFP! I truly thought this would never happen to me again. Failure after failure and failure...and here we are. With one, possibly two babies on the way. I'm so excited and overwhelmed right now.

This is all I wanted - to please let me get on with starting my family. I have been through enough already. I'm ready to just skip this pregnancy and have my baby, please, thank you very much. I have struggled with IF for several years, failed with numerous IUI's, lost my full term baby after IVF#3, and 18 months, $100K and lots of grief and tears later, lo & behold IVF#8 works. I even have 3 frosties! YAY!

Now if I can just get through the next 9 months without losing my mind over every OB appointment. I'll never forget when we couldn't find Kara's heartbeat. I fear I'll never be able to walk into another OB appointment without my husband there with me.

We will get through this. I will get to hold a real, live baby at the end of this pregnancy. Please, God.

33 comments:

Rachel said...

Yesssss, I've been checking all day to hear this news. I am totally thrilled for you and DH. Thank you, God,for this blessing. Huge hugs to you. You can do this!

Alison said...

I got so excited when I read this!!! YAY!!!!!! I am so happy for you. I have been checking in with you over the past few days. I just announced my pregnancy publicly as well. I am due at the end of June, but because of our loss, I will have a c-section around 37-38 weeks. My first nurse apt. 2 weeks ago, I went by myself and had a panic attack and my blood pressure went UP! From that point on, I told my husband that he has to come with me to my appointments. He is planning on being at every one of them. If for some reason he can't come, I have a good friend that I think might be able to come with me.
Oh yay!! I am so excited for you!

still life angie said...

Congratulations!

sprogblogger said...

WOOOOOHOOOOOO!!!!!

Tears in November said...
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Tears in November said...

Congratulations!

Eb said...

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CONGRATULATIONS OH MY GOD I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!
I am crying I am so happy for you.
oh man. so cool.
EB

Barbara said...

Oh bless your heart, I am so pleased for you! Congratulations!

xx

Lea said...

So happy for you......

Praying with you!

Anonymous said...

whoohoo!!!! grow baby(ies) grow!!! love nancy

Ter said...

I'm happy to hear the good news. I hope everything goes well with this pregnancy and you get to bring home your rainbow baby. :) ((hugs))

Mad Hatter said...

This SO made my day! I am as thrilled for you as I would be if it were me - truly. So happy. Congratulations!!!

dawn said...

I just found and read your entire blog TODAY! Congratulations on your BFP!! You deserve it and may the Lord look over you and your little ones and keep you all safe.

I am pg with my first baby (donor egg) at the age of 45! Don't feel like you squandered your youth. It was just the path you were destined to take to be the best Mom ever. I think us over 40 Moms bring experience and knowledge to the table that will benefit our kids. Got to find that silver lining.

I am so happy for you! ;-)

Franchesca said...

Congratulations!!!

Riley said...

Yes!! Your time has come - you so deserve this!! Yay! I am overjoyed for you - fantastic beta! I know this is going to be a scary journey, but one that I hope will be well worth it in the end. I am so happy for you! Congratulations!

Hope's Mama said...

Brilliant!!!!! Sooooooooooo happy for you!
So much love & luck to you.
xo

-clevergirl said...

I had to tell you again how HAPPY I AM FOR YOU!!!!!!!!

abbaarik said...

so so happy for you!!!!!
xoxo

aliza said...

oops that last comment was from me...
xox

Bree (Indiana) said...

Congratulations! This is the best news I will hear all day. I am so happy for you and your husband!

Eb said...

I'm still smiling! congratualtions agian!
EB

forward tumble said...

thrilled, thrilled, thrilled, soo, soo, sooooooo happy.
and grateful for the BFP HGC of 447 that's one massive beta, that might just be 2!!!

All our love and prayers

xx Ines & John

Holly said...

Oh Babette...I have been following your story for months...being a babylost mama myself....I have hurt along side you. I am so thrilled for you....hugs and prayers for a healthy pregnancy!!

From Holly in Alabama!!

Amy said...

Yay! Keeping positive thoughts for you! Grow baby grow!

Anonymous said...

Oh Babette!!!!! I am just in tears for you! This is the best news ever. Congratulations, a million times over. It is a scary journey, but one of such importance too. I am here if you ever want to chat about it.
Huge, big, tearstreaked hugs for you!
Steph

mrsroberts said...

Hi, my name is Jessica and I just found your blog. I had a stillborn son just a few weeks ago. Congratualtions on being pregnant!

Anonymous said...

Praying for a healthy pregnancy.

T said...

Happy tears - excellent news. :)

Melis.sa said...

Congratulations!!!!

Best When Used By said...

What an amazing, HUGE beta! Congratulations! I so love when I learn that someone in our community finally got a BFP. And I am particularly happy that your turn finally came! I wish you a blessed, perfect, uneventful pregnancy.

R said...

Congratulations!!!! I'm so happy for you!!!!

DE Mommy said...

WOOHOO!! Great news!!!

linda said...

Congrats!!!! Such great news. I know it won't take away your loss (nothing can do that) but I hope that this brings joy to you!